I am ten days into this program and last night I broke down in a moment of weakness and cheated. My daughter was having a sleepover and there was Doritos involved and out of a subconscious habit, I reached into the bag and grabbed a hand full. Once I had them in hand, I broke down and put them into my mouth. I must say, it felt like Heaven..until the second handful, when I suddenly felt overwhelmed with guilt.
This weekend has been so rough for me because I mean hey, it is the weekend you know. We usually eat out or have "fun" foods. They say that when people have gastric bypass surgery they go through a mourning process over food, I do believe that is what I have gone through today. Food has always been my best friend, my comfort. I regret to say I am up a pound but this is all trial and error and I am human, which means I will fall from time to time. But the glory of it all is, I get back up. Today I learned to plan my meals ahead. I wrote down all the food I planned to eat so I could not fail. I only ate what was written down, and no more. I am proud to say I did that! This is a journey and I caused myself to be like this, so it's up to me to fix it.
Here's what I had to eat today:
Breakfast: Egg beaters 25 cals
Lunch: Shrimp Stir Fry with loads of veggies 115 cals
Melba toast 20 cals
Watermelon 60 cals
Dinner: Turkey buger 170 cals
Rotel 20 cals
Melba toast 20 cals
Strawberry lemon aid 80 cals
(blended strawberries with ice, lemon juice and Stevia)
Todays total Calories 515
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